My Final Good Bye!

I wake up this morning with horrible news, I never realized that someone whom I really cared for and love has passed away. My dog Kicker after months of suffering from the deceases in which for a long time he withstand without any complain coming from him, has finally give up. I felt horrible and guilty at the same time, if only I could do more to take good care of him probably somehow he still survive. He was diagnose with heart-worm disease which tend to attack and alter the normal flow of the blood, the vet give him a dosage of ivermectin knowing of the risk involve that their are chances that he might not be able to make it through. After dosage he became more sick and worse than ever, I felt so bad, if only I never give such dosage probably we could still be with him even for a shorter period of time. I never realize that he could not be able to make it through, I know Kicker is a strong dog and a fighter at the same time. If only I knew that last night with be the last time I ever going to see his eyes staring at me, probably I still have a chance to be able to say my final good bye and thank him for such a wonderful companion and a good dog he was. And also I could be able to say that I'm sorry because I wasn't able to give him the freedom to roomed freely because he spend most of his life on his cage. I know that Kicker is in a better place now so that he would no longer suffer here. Too bad though because I could no longer give him an expensive collar I always promise to give him if I was able to find a better job. Goodbye Kicker I definitely going to miss you..thank you for the trust and loyalty that you showed me even though I am not the best master you expect me to be..